Out of My Mind

Out of My Mind

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Who is that dweeb?

I left my partner, R. a voice message the other day and as I was listening to it to see if we had any other messages I realised that my voice sounds different coming from a place outside my head.. and let me tell you, it's not a nice melodic sound like I imagined, but a nasally, whiny, sounds-just-like-my-sister voice.. *shudder*.. when I pointed out to R. that I sounded like my sister L. he said "Yeah, I know" because, I guess, if my voice was coming at him from out of my head and not into my head, he could tell the difference... I further thought "and you're still with me?".. another mystery...

I remember when my, now 13 year old, granddaughter was a baby I videotaped myself laying on the floor and talking to her in babytalk.. I repeated Brrrrrittany, over and over again until I wanted to rip my own tongue out by it's roots.. I think I might have scarred the poor thing for life... I can't stand to look at that video to this day..

Now every time that I talk, especially on the phone, I can hear my own voice.. very distracting and disconcerting to say the least, and sometimes I'm so engrossed in listening to myself talk *and not in the usual good way*, I lose track of what I was saying.
week 1 193.4
week 2 193.4 - 189 = 4.4 lost
week 3 189 - 186.6 = 2.4 lost
week 4 missed this meeting
week 5 186.6 -186.8 = .2 gained
week 6 186.8 - 183.6 = 3.2 lost
week 7 183.6 - 181.6 = 2 lost
week 8 181.6 - 182.4 = .8 gained
week 9 182.4 - 181.8 = .6 lost
week 10 181.8 - 179.8 = 2 lost
week 11 179.8 - 182 = 2.2 gained
week 12 182 - 179.8 = 2.2 lost


Are you noticing the same pattern I am???.. hmmm .. interesting..

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

My weight loss journey... continued...

I started Weigh Watchers on May 07/2007. My starting weight was 193.4 pounds and since I'm only 5 ft 2 inches tall the most I should weigh is 137 according to the WW chart. So I had 56.4 pounds to lose. I started on the point system and now I'm on the core plan.

week 1 193.4
week 2 193.4 - 189 = 4.4 pounds lost
week 3 189 - 186.6 = 2.4 pounds lost
week 4 missed this meeting
week 5 186.6 -186.8 = .2 pounds gained
week 6 186.8 - 183.6 = 3.2 pounds lost
week 7 183.6 - 181.6 = 2 pounds lost
week 8 181.6 - 182.4 = .8 pounds gained
week 9 182.4 - 181.8 = .6 pounds lost
week 10 181.8 - 179.8 = 2 pounds lost
* yeah I broke the 180 mark!!!*
so as of today I've lost a total of 13.6 pounds which is an average of 1.4 pounds a week.

I've done so well that I've been able to discontinue one of my diabetic medications (with my doctor's blessings of course) and my goal is to discontinue my other.

My way of thnking is that this is going to be a new way of living.. not just a diet and this is a new way of thinking for me.

I'm determined to reward myself for each 5 pounds with a smaill reward and a larger one for each 10 pounds.
When I lost my first 10 pounds I got a haircut.

I'll use this medium to keep myself honest.

Weight Watcher is going well..

I've lost 11.6 so far and I go for a weigh in tonight so I'm hoping that it will be more.. on my own scales I've lost but you never know with those cheap scales if they're accurate or not.

My way of looking at it now is that I'm in this for life, literally.. I've been able to come off of one of my medications for diabetes (with my doctor's blessings of course) and she said I should work towards being strictly diet controlled which is entirely possible if I take off the weight. My arthritis will be more relieved if I take off more weight.. I tend to carry my weight around my wasteline so if I can reduce that it will help me to not be off balance because of the weight on the front (now if I could only get the lower belly weight to move around to the nonexistant butt I'd be happy).

We should hear very soon about our reclass and if it went through.. it's been about a year of work on this and I think they're going to offer us something but what is the question. It's rediculous but I've been thinking a lot about retiring lately and I can't wait for it to happen.. It's going to be torture for the next 5-6 years if I don't stop!!! Maybe I just need a vacation.. another six weeks to go.

My garden is doing great and will post some pictures later. I bought a stargazer lily last week and I can't wait for it to bloom.. well gotta run and get ready for work and weigh in tonight.. wish me luck on both counts.